So I have a question, to anyone who is experiencing depression with NAP: Are you really happy with your life as it is? Or are you just asking for Success for the goals you have to continue on in your misery?
I only ask because for the longest time every time I would get a powerful charge of energy things would spontaneously happen around me that, while inconvenient, still worked in my favor. Yeah, I experienced some depression, but that was because the foundations of my life were being seriously distorted and twisted. (I am talking Big Things here.) Sometimes in life we are not where we want to be and we don't have what we need to be happy, and so we desperately do a ritual or a spell to work on keeping up appearances, but it doesn't work, nothing happens, and suddenly we are upset and angry because what we wanted done didn't work.
It's because you didn't really want it. You wanted that bigger change deep down. At least, that's been my experience with things. So your whole life is shaking and twisting behind the scenes. That depression is the universe around you creaking and trying to contort but the foundation you have established so far is holding it back.
Now don't misunderstand me. Elubatel is more than willing to work with you so you are successful at everything you attempt, but you must give your all to it. You must talk with him about it and say 'I know this is not helping me long term but please help me with this task because I can't let go of my old life just yet.' And he WILL work with you. But you must have that dialogue, otherwise he is going to approach things from the Big Scope. And if you're not ready- and let's be honest, when will that be?- the current will sweep you off your feet and drown you.
Elubatel is the white-gold transmutational substance. He is the alchemical stone that helps transform a lead soul to a gold soul. He will lead you down the multiple dead-ends of fate to find that penultimate final form of who you really are supposed to be. And he is fantastic for it.
But unless you are really ready to change, unless you are really ready to have reality rocked before you then I would suggest a different spirit.