Post#236 » Sat Jun 03, 2023 6:30 pm
I remember doing a working a few months back with Elubatel, and I distinctly remember the approach. I'd always considered Elubatel a woman, but this spirit was definitely male. What I experienced could only be described as many different layers put around someone inquiring, like a receptionist. For each layer, there was a question and my inner nature would respond to each layer. Picture a mildly irritated phone agent asking basic questions like "Have you tried turning it off an on again?"
For each layer I moved past, there was a different question. Question perhaps isn't the right way to frame it. More like a fly trap. Did I think this layer was attractive? No, okay then you're not coming to me in ignorance. What about this layer? Is it sweet? No, then you're not coming out of anger. I'm seriously generalizing it. Anyway, after a few moments of "questioning", a very happy receptionist decided that I would actually get the chance to work with Elubatel in the way that I did.
From what I saw, it wasn't that each "fly trap" was supposed to deter me, I would have just been classified in a certain way. I got the feeling(edit: got the feeling from who I was communicating with) that MANY people approached this angel with ignorance of themselves, and in unawareness of what they actually wanted. I am guessing that on some level, they stuck to a fly-trap once questioned about their intentions, and was promptly sent elsewhere once their intentions were known. "Okay, you're gonna just sit in the corner for a while until you figure it out". I should note these are my words, and I'm watering down the experience. I can't really explain it properly, and it was some time ago.
I have had similar experiences where a being is "checking" me to see how I'm approaching. Are my glasses dirty, or are they clear? If they're dirty, and I don't know they are, I'm in for a ride. It has happened, especially with Thoth. He doesn't pity the fool, in my experience. My guess is, and it's not for everything, but if you're getting the run around, you probably got sent somewhere else by someone who didn't want to waste their time.
<digress> I recently did a curse with Set-Typhon. Nearly complete, and Set informs me that I'm trying to set off a nuke when it's really just a little cherry bomb that I needed. The most important part was "Will you listen to me, or will you continue in the way you are?" I had to adjust, because how I felt about it definitely wasn't going to trump wisdom(and an ultimatum from a god known for disasters). It might be shit either way, but disagreeing with a universal force won't make it any prettier. I took it as a learning experience. Felt the same with Elubatel and that experience. </disgress>