In the interest of documenting my success here, it would appear that the work I've done is, well, working. This weekend, I had an experience that normally would have set me into a spiral due to it being relatively similar to something that happened to me as a child. Instead of spiraling out of control, I was able to collect my thoughts, deal with the physiological reactions, and no one was harmed in my doing so. I felt a bit drained after it all, but all in all, that's a hell of a lot better than what could have happened.
Wanderer, I have experienced the same thing with Elubatel...One point i felt like i was running around stamping out small fires which was mentally exhausting. Im still trying different approaches with him/her. I havent gotten any major break through yet other than the call for a job (which is good) the employer recommended me for other routes available for that was swooped up that fast but still he called me and is interested in me. That was just odd he called even though the route in that area was taken already. I guess Elubatel is wondering what i will do to find the funds to invest first before i get the job. Lol, this is like playing chess.
Yes he/she will put you through the test. I am glad it worked out for you this weekend. Maybe your being prepared for something bigger. I always watch my surroundings for signs to come. I will keep you updated on things. Im sure good things will come your way. (hopefully mine too) I guess some people would say why dont you give up summerland well... There something drawing me back to him so there must be a reason.